Life of a J-Lo

It’s the worst feeling to want something so bad, that it hurts, and to know that you could never have and never will have what you want the most.

I need to move past this but it’s so hard.

I’m getting bitter in my old age, I resent any couple for what they have and envy straight people for how easy it seems to fall in and out of relationships. It’s easy for a guy and girl to know they like each other. I would give up being gay if I could.

One just once in my life I would like someone to have a crush on me. 30 and never been crushed on.

Bitter & jaded

I hate being gay! I’m always the one left alone at the end of the night! FUCK BEING GAY! OVER IT! Wanna be normal!!

My “social experiment” with my fake grindr just goes to show how easy the pretty people have it! Endless guys would be at my disposal if I looked like a good. And I don’t mean just sex. There are some really nice guys on grindr..who would not bat an eyelid at my real one, who really like fake me…which is actually my personality. To bad they will never get to actually meet this person. If I looked like a model and still had my personality I would he set in life pretty much. It’s really quite sad, but this is the gay world. If only I was straight, maybe that would be easier!

I should be greatfull that I had one person who said they liked me…while highly intoxicated…so it meant nothing! I should stop helping people! Drunk tumble end!