Life of a J-Lo

It’s the worst feeling to want something so bad, that it hurts, and to know that you could never have and never will have what you want the most.

I need to move past this but it’s so hard.

I’m getting bitter in my old age, I resent any couple for what they have and envy straight people for how easy it seems to fall in and out of relationships. It’s easy for a guy and girl to know they like each other. I would give up being gay if I could.

One just once in my life I would like someone to have a crush on me. 30 and never been crushed on.

Bitter & jaded

Times are fucked ATM. Mostly in my head and I can’t seem to do anything to change it. I just want things to be normal. If I wasn’t the way I was life would be easier. But they are not. I wish I still had my best friend living out my pocket. I know what I want but can’t or won’t do anything to change it. Just needed a rant.

One of the hardest things is seeing someone you like, liking someone else. It crushes you inside and you can’t do anything about it cause your friends, and it can never happen between you. It’s so hard to push the feelings aside. Story of my life. Story of my fucking life!!

Wish these damn feelings would die already!

Getting my guy friends to goto the movies is like drawing blood through a stone.

30, single, sitting in a pub alone, cause I couldn’t get a park close to my house…so instead of walk, I will drink cider till the cars move….ahhhh life

When straight guy mates hang out they tend to take a lot of pics with each other messing about and shit, when I hang out with my straight guy friends…it sometimes feels like they are afraid to be caught dead in a pic with a gay guy…or maybe just me lol

What is

Snuggling up with a guy on the couch watching movies?

Something I’ve never done!

Ding ding!

Just wanna be held *sigh* not impressed with myself either.

Lay in bed and hug a guy

30th at the Nash…with Damo, Bridie, Jesse…..Harly?! And Bar guy…ok not that bad…haha fuck. Wish Mitch was here!

Life is a funny thing, it throws you so many curve balls, and try as you might, you cant catch them all. I tend to throw myself in front of them sometimes, even when i know it will hurt. But the good thing is i have some of the most amazing people in my life, even if some of them are not around at the moment, i wouldn’t have it any other way. Two more days and I’m out of my 20’s….and one of my favorite sayings never rang more true.

The more things change, the more they stay the same.

and life goes on

Honeymoons over people!!